Fear of healing

[goodytwoshoes]

Hi Kat,

I just won a healing session from your amazing healer Bernadette. We haven't yet finalized a time but i know it will be sometime within the next two weeks but there is something i need to get over before i actually speak to her.

I'm absolutely terrified of healing myself or even starting the healing process. In my head i know healing is a good thing but i cant get myself to be comfortable with the idea. I know keeping everything inside me is bad but at the same time i don't want to let go. I feel like all the negative things inside me are also protecting me. I hold it all so close that its almost a barrier of negative energy around me and while that barrier might be keeping me locked inside its also protecting me from the world. i feel that if i allow myself to heal and release the negative i will be so exposed and vulnerable and the idea scares me. As it is i feel things so deeply and I'm scared i wont be able to handle being so open.

I'm not even sure if this fear makes any sense but i was just wondering if you have any suggestions on how to be more open and ready to heal?

[katbrooks]

you are more open and you are ready to feel.
Just feel the fear and make the call.
She will guide you.
Breathe.
Trust.
When you cried when I hugged you is how it will feel when you
speak to her. That is what healers do sweetheart.
You will be okay. YOU ARE OKAY.

[goodytwoshoes]

If it will feel like it did when i hugged you then i might be ready for that....I trust you Kat so im going to take your word for it.
i am so grateful for having you in my life.
I love you.